"I'm doing the opposite of celebrating. Mourning?" Marco shook his head a little, "No that's not right either."

He chugged some more alcohol seeking a more numb state. "It's like when a new era comes and you say farewell to the old. Except in this case the new era is good and the old is bad. And you don't want to bring the bad into the new. Like a detox. Aye."